I've been feeling really bummed out about music lately, well when I say lately I kind of mean for the last ten or so months. I'm not sure what happened I just started getting gradually more and more disinterested in the music that I was listening to. Taking a break to listen to the stuff I grew up with didn't really help either, and it got to the point where all I'd listen to was Big Giant Circles. Which isn't a bad thing, but I used to listen to anything I could: Black Keys, Led Zepplin, Meshuggah, Mastodon, Big Giant Circles, Pelican, Zico Chain, Carnivores, Bach, Dresden Dolls, Reel Big Fish, the Adjusters, Reuben; pretty much anything I could find.
My musical feelings became numb, and I can't even remember if it shifted gradually or rather quickly. Hell, I don't even think it's fixed, but when walking home from the pub one night I remembered how music used to feel for one brief moment.
On a particular stretch of road, a few years ago when I was coming home from a gig on a cold April night, I had my mp3 player on and was listening to Hundred Reasons, trying not to sing along too loudly when 'The Perfect Gift' came on. Just as the song was telling me that I was, "So guillible in every way, You stupid fool.", I looked at the sky. Now, at my eye level it was a perfectly clear night, but just above my head was a descending blanket of snow, thick as clouds. It was unreal. And now that patch of road makes me think of that song, which makes me think of that night, and the world goes unreal for a few minutes.
So go listen to Hundred Reasons, they're the shit. And don't walk around dark roads at night, that's just stupid, I am stupid.
Also I have a question, I've been seeing a lot of 'My Secret' videos on YouTube lately, these videos are basically young women (although some guys have probably done it too), usually with bits of paper with some sort of narrative about their secrets and life story that they show to the camera while music is playing in the background. I'm curious, is this something you'd ever do? I know I write a blog where I'll be putting up a ton of personal stuff, my art (that I hope to get up someday) I feel is very personal, and I usually don't show it to people unless I'm 98% happy with it, or I really trust the other person and want their feedback. But I don't know if I could ever give away 'my secrets' in such a blatant manner. I wonder, am I overreacting to this, is it something any of you would ever do?
Thanks for reading - erin